allnostalgia | Nothing Left To Lose

You were 29.
I was 19.

You worked a steady job.
I was a full time student.

You were a married man.
I lived alone.

We were a secret.

More often than not
You’d come over to stay the night
Never, not even once
Did I try to step out of the confines of home
And let the world know of what we had.

Late night sex and cigarettes
Its hard to forget
Now, in a heartbeat, I’d do it all again

After what seemed an eternity
Ghosts of the past still linger

Before that wild ride began
What did I ever hold on to?

Calling out sins just to pass the time
But life goes by in the blink of an eye
I know you want me, I was only looking for a friend

Memories of a real life fade
As those of you seep deep into my brain

Who was I before you made me?
Who were you before I made you?

At least you had reminders of your reality
A family. A wife and a kid too pretty for the world.
I had…
What did I ever have aside from you?

You knew the rules
I never wanted to learn them

You knew it was wrong
I believed you’d make it right

They say you can’t lose what you never had
I guess, I’ve got nothing left to lose
Nothing to lose, in the first place
You were never actually mine

After Jesus and rock’n’roll
Couldn’t save my immoral soul
Well, I’ve got nothing left
I’ve got nothing left to lose

A/N: So my beloved best friend showed me lyrics to The Pretty Reckless' song 'Nothing Left To Lose' and this came out. Please, leave comments because I don't really know if its good or what because its written in a whole different way I usually do.